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I hate myself
I hate doing anything because I get criticised for it not matter what the hell I do
I hate that I only exist to people, i.e teachers and c*nt students, when I do something they don't like or is wrong
I hate how my mother blames almost all of her actions on me and my dad because she doesn't want to admit she's wrong and it's her own fault
I hate that I can't help people and just whine about my useless life and 'not really important' problems
I hate calling people my 'friends' when they just insult and hurt me physically, emotionally and mentally
I hate being depressed, paranoid, having anxiety (I only have a bit of anxiety, not a big amount of it that involves me fainting or sweating, etc...) and also... living
I hate being around other people because I'm scared they're gonna hurt me like all the other times, but I also hate being alone because I feel like no one wants me
I hate trying, because I get frustrated easily and when I don't get it right the first time I explode (but that's normal)
I hate that I adore most people, because I usually don't get that love back (If it's friends, yes, but other people, definitely not)
I hate that I'm never gonna meet the people I want to meet so badly (DA friends wise for this one)
I hate.... almost everything
I hate that I exist, because I'm a waste of space, time and of everyone's concern. I'm sorry that I'm alive....
I hate doing anything because I get criticised for it not matter what the hell I do
I hate that I only exist to people, i.e teachers and c*nt students, when I do something they don't like or is wrong
I hate how my mother blames almost all of her actions on me and my dad because she doesn't want to admit she's wrong and it's her own fault
I hate that I can't help people and just whine about my useless life and 'not really important' problems
I hate calling people my 'friends' when they just insult and hurt me physically, emotionally and mentally
I hate being depressed, paranoid, having anxiety (I only have a bit of anxiety, not a big amount of it that involves me fainting or sweating, etc...) and also... living
I hate being around other people because I'm scared they're gonna hurt me like all the other times, but I also hate being alone because I feel like no one wants me
I hate trying, because I get frustrated easily and when I don't get it right the first time I explode (but that's normal)
I hate that I adore most people, because I usually don't get that love back (If it's friends, yes, but other people, definitely not)
I hate that I'm never gonna meet the people I want to meet so badly (DA friends wise for this one)
I hate.... almost everything
I hate that I exist, because I'm a waste of space, time and of everyone's concern. I'm sorry that I'm alive....
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Another life update
Hi everyone :heart:
So as you can see, I'm not dead, however, I'm still not very active either. My motivation for drawing and ideas are lacking
as the days go on. I've also been dealing with personal problems, such as a recent break up (which still hasn't hit me quite yet)
and my mental health is going from a mix of bad to good, then horrible then good again. It's a mess, to say the least
I go back to college again the next day since my easter term is just about coming to an end, so that's gonna be me spending more time away. Might as well be on a Hiatus
I will continue to try and practice drawing so I can post more things, even if it's
Update
Hallo everybody!~
Yeah, it’s me I’m still alive 😊
I’m just dealing with college work and trying to get back into drawing too. I hope to draw some more and improve
I have also felt a change in myself for several months. I’m a bit more happier than what I used to be back in school (well, sort of. I’m a still a depressed little shit- 😂) Even so, at least I’m not as bad as I used to be. It’s just very hard to find full happiness when you’re surrounded by childish drama and personal issues
Anyway, I’ll do my best to get back into the swing of things and draw some more, even i
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Aww... Don't be so depressed... U are definitelyyy not a waste of space, time and of everyone's concern... Everyone is definitely born for a unique reason... It's just that u have not met the person who is meant for u, but I'm sure u would meet that special someone one day, after all u have gone through all this without giving up. Continue trying & striving, also try to look at the world at a different view, u will definitely find ur reasons to live on!! Jiayouss, even after u have fallen, u can cry but in the end it's best if u stand up & try again cus u r not alone, I'm alwayss by ur side whenever u need me! Cheer up!!
